well I went to therapy about two days ago. I never knew how much I could ramble. hahaha. I found out a lot out about myself though. I mean things I already knew, but I didn't analyze a lot of the things. I never asked myself the why question.
basically, we found out I have a very low opinion of myself (duh) lol. and i guess the goal for therapy is to love myself. but I don't see that happening anytime soon.
I'VE GAINED SO MUCH WEIGHT. FUCK.
125. ew.ew.ew.ew.ew.ew. I've been bingeing and purging and binging and purging.
lol I miss being anorexic and starving myself..... HA JK. pro ana moment lolz. but for real just kidding I wasn't trying to offend anyone.
I JUST WANNA EAT. lol. but i cannnnnnntt cuz ill get fat. and I suck balls at purging. like fast food i can purge and like ice cream and stuff. but things like chips cookies and any kind of crackers and foods like that I can not purge worth shit. I suck at life. wahhh.
ehhhh well I'm done. prob have to go clean some more today. i wonder if anyones home? its been weridly quiet here. ehh. well duces lovelies.
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