Because I can't find it. I'm depressed awfully.
I don't even know why this time.
I hate being alone. I hate it. I let guys walk all over me.
I'm desperate for love and affection. That's what makes me happy.
But it's not real happiness.
I honestly do not wanna do this anymore. This is so stressful. Waking up everyday hating everyone and everything around you, feeling so much anxiety you could die. I really feel like I'm not supposed to live anymore. I can't see myself growing old.
I can't deal with life anymore. I hate myself . I hate everyone around me. I just want to die.
Thats all I want is to just make it stop. I don't wanna do this.
