Blahhh

I'm such a mistake lol.
Me and Danny almost broke up yesterday.
I cried so hard I got sick.
I couldn't speak. Like literately it was horrible.

I'm so fat and disgusting and I hate myself.  That's it bye

I'm so unhappy with my life

I really am. Nothing is seeming to go right anymore.

I love my boyfriend but then again I hate him. He doesn't treat me like a girlfreind. I want the kind of boyfriend who sends there girlfriends good night texts and kisses them the moment they see her and tell her she's beautiful.

I guess I'm asking for a lot. I mean this is the 21st century and it's not like I'm gonna marry the guy. A big part of me wants to break up with him but idk what I would do without him. A big chunk of. Y heart would feel like it been ripped out of my chest. It's like something would be missing. I couldn't walk through the hall ways and see him and act like everything was okay. I couldn't do it.

He took my virginity. If he didn't take my virginity it would be so much easier to break up with him. Why the hell did I have sex with him? I didn't wanna do it. Now I always wanna have sex. And he doesn't. Which makes me feel unwanted.

I don't think he wants to be with me either. I don't think he has for awhile now. I hate him. He's just so awful. I just wish he would treat me how he used too.