Things to leave in 2015

-ex boyfriends
-tinder
-STEVEN
-boys who are friends but not really
-being fat
-giving a fuck
- Steven again bcuz fuck him
- negativity
- feeling like shit about yourself
-any guy that is currently in your life

I'm old and still doingg this shit lol

I forgot about this blog lol

It's been so long since I've wrote

I was really happy but then my ex started contacting me so idk

I've been drinking heavily and doing coke

So I'm sad

But I'm leaving for a new college in a few weeks

Im not sure if I want to leave. I mean I guess I do.

But what is the point of life? Seriously?

It's 7 am and I'm still fucked up

And I seriously don't Even know why

I'm dumb and so if life

I hope my pillow that I left at your house smells like me. I hope you find pieces of my hair in your bed. I hope when you're doing laundry you'll find my shirt. I hope when you open your bathroom cabinets you find my toothbrush. I hope you'll find my shampoo and body wash in your shower and youll breath in it's smell. I hope you see my pictures on social media. I hope your mom asks about me and asks why you left me when I was the only girl that truly ever cared. I hope you realize what a mistake you made, and when you finally realize it, I'll be long gone.


You always want what you can have but honey you can not have me.

Ugh

Part of me wants to be self destructive and part of me wants to get my shit together. What part shall I listen to?

Steven broke up with me and were done but it's a good thing it just hurts like hell.

I cut myself :/ and I want to cut more. And get drunk and kill myself

I haven't ate today at all and I feel fine. I just don't care about anything right now

Idk

Kinda wanna kill myself

I won't but it sounds very nice

I've been off my medicine for about a month now because I thought I was doing good and I could do good without it but apparently not.

I don't know what I'm doing with my life anymore. I'm way over my head. I just don't want to do this anymore.

I haven't cut in like a year but it sounds so nice right now

I'm sad lately. Haven't took my anti depressants in weeks so that probably has something to do with it.

I cried pretty hard today.

I'm dating a guy who I like but I don't think I want to be with him.

It's moving too fast.

I like him but he tells me he loves me and yeah I say it back but I don't mean it

But like it's like I'm too far gone I can't change my mind

I was doing so good. Boys are always what fuck me up.

Mynor has been talking to me. Shhhwhat