I'm not as stupid as you sound and you sound really dumb right now.

I went to this eating disorder screening thing at my school today. We got extra credit if we went to it which I needed badly so I went. I took the survey and to have an eating disorder you needed a 20 or higher. I got a 40 lol. I should of just lied but I thought it would be helpful. It really wasn't, but I think it's cool that they are raising awareness for eating disorders.

not much going on, just busy and tired.

I reallly wish Mynor wasn't so distant. He likes to play with my mind like that. Ugh. Why do I like him so much? It's obvious he doesn't give a shit about me and just wants me for his little toy to play with.


Treat a girl like dirt and shell stick to you like mud I suppose. I'm scared of him. Is that normal? I don't know.

of course I binged and purged

I'm such a failure. I just want to die.

Yuck

My body is disgusting. Hideous. I hate it. And I hate me.

I wish someone was hear to hold me. I'd probably just end up chasing them away because that's what I'm best at.

People always leave. I'm so easy to leave. I'm so vulnerable and weak and fat and ugly.

I wish I was a mature adult. I wish I could just grow the fuck up.

I want mynor. He doesn't give a shit about me tho so oh welll

I want to die

I can't deal with all my responsibilities

I just feel sad tonight

I'm not sure why but I'm longing for someone to hold me more than normal. My heart feels like it's being ripped out and stomped on for no apparent reason. I just feel like crying and screaming and throwing things and hurting myself.

How nice would it be to run a blade through my skin? Such a release. I want to feel physical pain. I'm craving it.

I feel like dying and in a painful way. I just want to stab my heart and forget I ever lived. College is too hard. I hate it. Life is too hard. I just want to hide from the world and never come out. Lay in bed and watch netflix all day. I don't want responsibilities. I want to be carefree.

I hate me I hate me I hate me. I'm such a pouty little girl I wish I could grow the fuck up. I'm so annoying and worthless. I don't deserve love. I don't deserve it.