half because I actually am kind of sick.
the other half? I fucking hate life and hate school and the people that are there, and I'd rather sleep all day than go.
but, for real my throat has been killing me and purging has just been making it worse. I'm fasting for the next two days since my fat ass decided to binge all day. I'm gonna be at school so hopefully that'll distract me from eating.
some girl I know in real life found my tumblr....... and she started following me.
first off, WHAT THE FUCK. how the FUCK did she find me? with the billions of users on tumblr, she finds mine? what are the fucking odds? I'm just seriously baffled. I haven't told anyone in real life my tumblr or anything. i even googled my fucking name and it didn't come up. my url doesn't even have my name in it. I saw on her tumblr that she reblogged some things that I reblogged from other people, so i guess she saw my url that way, but fucking still. what are the odds.
second, makes me wonder if she has an eating disorder. i don't think she does because I looked through her tumblr and it just looked like a normal teens tumblr. I mean there where some questionable things, but all teenagers worry about looks and such. she didn't have anything that directly led me to believe there was anything wrong with her. I wanted to see her followers and the people she follows, but it didn't show up on her page. if anyone knows how to find that, I'd gladly appreciate it if they would tell me.
thirdly, i blocked her but that doesn't mean what has been done hasn't been done. if she asks me I'm gonna act like I don't know what shes talking about and say that I don't even have a tumblr. I'm also gonna say that someone must of stole my pics from online or some shit.
BUT, if shes all like "i have an eating disorder too i wont tell anyone" then maybe we can come best friends or somthing, but i doubt thats gonna happen.
shes a really nice girl, shes homeschooled and im good friends with her brother. im just praying she wont tell anyone.
but if she does, and somehow the school finds out, I am going to kill myself, make no doubt about it.
it's 12:30, i should prob try to sleep or somthing of the liking. toodles.
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