So a couple nights ago I cut because of a guy, after about 6 months being cut free. I'm not going to get into the details because it's complicated but anyways me and this guy are probably not going to see each other anymore.
I wrote these things on my mirror today (quotes I found on tumblr)
-and please remember that you were beautiful before he told you that you were.
-just because Someone desires you, does not mean they value you.
-stop setting yourself on fire for someone who stays to watch you burn.
-you are what you love not who loves you.
So this guy texted me and got me all in my feelings again and I was about to get my razor and cut again but I looked at my mirror and read those words. Something inside me clicked.
Everytime something bad happens to me I think I need to cut or starve or binge and purge and I don't! Negative things keep happening to me because of my borderline personality disorder. And I'm done. I'm done letting my mental illness ruin my life. I'm done thinking that I need a guy to make me happy. I'm recovering. I'm going to get happy. I'm going to do all the homework my therapist gives me and be honest with her and honest with myself.
I'm going to kick some fucking bulimia/ borderline personality disorder ass! No more letting this shit ruin my life. I'm getting my life back.
Look out world here I come :)
