my life right now is a mess. i went to church camp and felt really close to god but i can already feel myself falling. i wish someone would catch me.
i don't want to get better anymore. i'm sick of this recovery bullshit. i'm fatter and uglier than ever before.
i'm restricting tomorrow.
i've changed. i just want to die. dealing with life gets so old sometimes ya know?
danny such a great guy. were still together. i thought he would leave me by now. I'm sure he will eventrully.
he gets all pissed because i hang with my friends. i used to stop hanging with my friends cuz of him now i am making time for both. im sorry i need to find balance in my life.
i can't stop having sex with danny which is really the whole reason i was falling away. ugh. i'm sorry.
i want my phone i left it in dannys car. wahh.
